Thursday, August 04, 2005
daphne, of cos we noticed. hehe. it wld be hard to miss the difference. cheer up k?
now it's my turn to vent my frustrations. today, i gave the class a talk on the class cleanliness. but that is actually only an introduction. not sure if many people noticed but my real focus was on the attitudes of our classmates. i found it really disgusting and horrifying when i witness how heck care they can get. up till now, those two girls who did not put the computer covers back properly that day did not show any actions at all. i may be on the same level as them but sometimes i hope to get some basic respect. if they dun respect me as a classmate, at least respect themselves. are they really that ignorant or do they really want to degrade themselves to such a level when people can be shooting direct hints to them and they dun notice? to be in four eight, they must be already pretty intelligent people. if all they got is high IQ and low EQ, wat's the use of studying so hard for? graduates are becoming more and more common, people even once said that on the streets of india, you can find U degree holders all over the place. i doubt they would ever stand out if they continue to have this type of poor attitude. i hope so too because it would be the last thing i wish for if i see "machines" rather than real humans working with a heart.
the last horrible thing of the day came from another classmate of mine. we agreed on drawing lots and no one objected. then when it turned out to be her, she refused to take it and gave an invalid reason. after much persuasion from me and even some help from eunice and all, she still din get our point?! she even cried. i think that was really irresponsible. firstly, it makes me doubt the credibility of our class's votes. when i conduct a voting session or ask for any objections i only want some honest and heartfelt feedback. but this incident totally overthrows the previous faith that i hold in voting results! did she not object because of the low possibility that it would turn out to be her? that is really despicable. it's an extremely selfish way of doing things. secondly, i only juz gave my talk to the class to highlight the importance of having more unity and team spirit for the class. only a few months and we are officially out of the school! cant we at least try to have more love for the class? it makes me feel as though what i said was all wasted, no difference to talking ato a block of wood. thirdly, by crying over this matter, to me it seems really immatured and irresponsible. immatured because she was so weak. it is an insult to even use the word because it isnt even anything big at all?!?! irresponsible because she never spared any thoughts for the consequences around her. with her high IQ, hasnt it ever crossed her mind how the other classmates would view the matter and how we would view her as from now onwards? i muz admit, i can be pretty firm at times. regardless of how many buckets of tears she shed, i wont feel that pity for her at all. but we wont force her too.
man can be really ugly at times. underneath the surface of their looks and results, there's an ugly and selfish side to them. but i wont let myself get upset or feel defeated by them. instead, it makes me feel even more relieved. at least i know i have not wasted that sixteen years of my life. i know clearly that i have grown up mentally and be proud to say that i am matured for my age.
toughest challenges given to the most capable.
i say it, i mean it.
sorry for pouring out so much. poor reader, your eyes should huurt by now. quick!! rest those poor eyes for a few mins!! :>
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